alwaystheocean

So as mentioned on Bluesky, I'm having a very exciting month! I got diagnosed with ADHD last week for a start! I had my first day on stimulants today!

Let me tell you, it's been stimulating!

Like, early doors obv, and it really could be psychosomatic, or a placebo, (...is that the same thing?) which is part of what I'm doing here, I always want to make more time for DW and I really would like to document the experience so why not combine the two.

Today I:
- made the conscious choice to turn off my alarm and go back to sleep till 11 (I'm off work right now, why deserves its own post)
- took my stimulant at around 11
- again, actively chose to stay in bed and dick around on my phone for an hour. This is pretty standard but today it didn't feel like I was stuck and dragging my heels the way it usually does, having made the decision to take it easy today, it felt like I was hurkledurkling and enjoying it. (We went to the Globe yesterday, which is always great but always fatiguing, plus a bunch of other stuff lately has also been a lot.)
- when I did decide to get up, it happened really quickly and easily, normally I get distracted, sit back down a lot, switch around between tasks in an entirely unproductive way, etc, but at 12ish I decided to get up and by 12:30 I was up, had eaten, dressed, made my bed, washed etc, and had settled down to the day's tasks, which is already wild, honestly.
- by 2pm, I had completed the jobs I'd set myself for the day. (Catching up with my accounts, which I was 6-8 weeks behind on, unpack from the weekend, and start laundry going.)
- While doing my accounts, I didn't get distracted by notifications on my phone or laptop once, which is W I L D.
- I then did half my physio exercises for a knee injury, another thing I normally drag my heels on and struggle to get done.
- I got a call from the garage, informing me my car was ready to pick up. I said "how's now?" and had left the house within 5 minutes, also unheard of, and was back home with my car with the whole thing start to finish having taken inside 30 minutes.
- I then cast about for something else to do, and decided to write my Dear Festividder, which, again, I did in one sitting, no distractions, and it was really easy.
- I then hung out my laundry (as soon as the cycle ended), put on more, made lunch, tidied up the kitchen, ate lunch, and read my book and did some knitting.
- by this time it was only 4pm, at which point I got a few bits done on my laptop, and headed out to the gym exactly at the time I meant to, and finished my physio before doing a workout with usuallyhats, headed home, showered, had a phone call with our mortgage broker, and made dinner.
- I've also done my sketch for the day (I've been doing a sketch a day journal since April) with no heel dragging, and written this entire entry.
- We also watched Crit Role Campaign 4 with dinner and then tea and knitting.

So that's my whole day. I don't intend to start journalling my whole life like this, tho I guess it does have its appeal. Written down like that I'd say the med is working. I feel fine. I feel *great* even, like I'm not fighting myself to get things done and like it's easier to focus on just deciding to do a thing and put things in order to do them. After breakfast this morning, I started playing a phone game but at some point while waiting for an ad, just got up and got on with my day. That is another pitfall that just...didn't happen to me today.

If things keep up like this I've got plans for world domination before the end of the year.